000683 Revon - Nicholas Revon, Of Slidell, La On Friday, October 7, 2005. Father Of Jordan N. Revon And Danielle N. Revon. Son Of Patricia Lejeune Herrmann, Brother Of Craig M. Revon And Jarret J. Revon, Brother-In-Law Of Angel Meaders Revon. Former Husband Of Jacqueline Spicuzza Revon. Step-Son Of The Late John P. Herrmann, Jr. And Son Of The Late Lincoln L. Revon. Relatives And Friends Of The Family Are Invited To Attend The Graveside Funeral Services At Forest Lawn Cemetery, 1751 Gause Blvd. West. Slidell La On Tuesday, October 11, 2005 At 11:00 Am. Interment In Forest Lawn Cemetery. Visitation On Tuesday From 10:00 Am Until Time Of Service. Kindly Omit Flowers, Donations To The Charity Of Your Choice Preferred. Arrangements By Honaker Funeral Home, Inc., Slidell, La Times Picayune 10-11-2005.

Staring at the pictures on my shelf late at night, I saw one in particular that always makes me long for my childhood. It's me, kneeling on the ground/bed and my dad sitting on it, with a board of chinese checkers between us. Taken at his mother's house, shortly after the divorce, it depicts a smiling, innocent Jordan Revon, the day after his 9th birthday sporting his new Pokemon watch. Opposite, a forced smile creeps its way across my dad's face, his eyes obviously red from crying before the picture was taken (this is actually a staple of some later pictures I own of him). No starker contrast could be made, no greater emotion captured at this moment. It was the day he gave me his two most prized possessions, Drew Bledsoe and John Elway figurines, with large heads. He also gave me my birthday present, a statuette of a frog with the shirt labeled "Cool Dude," as well as some cash. It's sad to look at the picture and wonder what things would be like if he were still alive. He would be able to see me graduate high school, place in state for swim team, and see me go to college, a feat that would be the first on his side of the family. There are so many questions I wish I could ask him. There's so little I know about him, and I feel afraid to ask his mother about it but I also fear that if I don't, when she finally does end up dying that his side of the family will pass with her. The history of the Revon family, the name, the people, all lost. 

I know my mother had good reasons to divorce him, and I do not blame her for anything that happened to him as a result. Instead, I just hope that maybe, somehow, he knows of all the great things I've done since he passed, and of all the great things I want to do one day. I would like to have him pat me on the back and say he was proud of me  one day. I wish I could have learned those things a boy has to learn from his father instead of learning for myself. This October will be 5 years since he died. All I can do is keep his memory and hope he'll be proud of me.