Janet still has feelings for me. Her plans for her life had been made before she met me. She hadn't factored me in. And it was hard for her to do that with the distance. She couldn't handle it. It was easier to just push me away.
But she still wants to be with me. She wants to ride this out with me.
And I essentially turned down Carlyn. I gave up a fresh start for the girl I can't ever stop thinking about. The girl I'm pretty sure is everything I could ever ask for. I'm normally so coherent, so witty. And her presence makes me unable to make a complete sentence. According to her, "you don't need to impress me. you did that a long time ago. and i like it when you're awkward. it's cute."
Driving with her to anywhere at all, laying in a bed with her, watching movies with her. No matter what, it just feels right. I haven't found that with anyone, past or present.
I would compare this to Jim and Pam. Jim likes Pam. Pam is engaged to Roy, and is unaware of Jim's feelings. When he makes his feelings known, she pushes him away. Jim doesn't give up. And eventually, he ends up with Pam. And they get engaged. And audiences turn in to watch the big episode where it finally happens.
So here's how it plays out. Jordan likes Janet. Janet is engaged to school, and is unaware of Jordan's feelings. When he makes his feelings known, she pushes him away. Jordan doesn't give up. And eventually, well...I don't know yet. I guess we'll have to find out.
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